Haven’t updated the blog in a while and here I am again. It’s been 2 weeks I suppose. Passed CNY and already the end of February.
well everything has a beginning, let’s start shall we? I guess last post was Feb 13 and that was a Friday I think? anyway the week after that I got a 2 day holiday at Thursday and Friday for CNY. Nothing big however most of my friend went back home and I spent it in Singapore instead. Ate dinner with my uncle’s family and my bro. We ate Steamboat I think and also some kind of mix of seven or eight or maybe nine kind of flavor which was a Singapore traditional food for CNY IIRC. I was full like really really full at that time. I guess it’s because I’ve been holding back on my meals so I would only reach the point of not hungry instead of full but after that dinner I was really full. Also drank some red wine, wished I could have drank more but it was my uncle’s so I didn’t bother.
Anyway that was that and the following week this week and for me it was E-Learning week. Better to call it free day except Lab though. Some class still held tutorial but mostly it’s the class that didn’t weight too heavily on my mind so I took the chance to rest and gather my thoughts. Although I said that but I was only trying to procrastinate probably haha. Last Monday I also went to the city. Went to the SRC as in Singapore Red Cross HQ(?) or Building,I should say. Anyway I went there with my superior/boss if you could call it. We went there to take some freebies that we requested for our Open House event.
Anyway the last 7 days was me procrastinating but I still got some responsibilities you know, as a student, although I wonder if you could still call me that with all this procrastinating haha. Got some test to take yesterday, a math test, a calculus math test. It wasn’t too hard ya see however I still got one question wrong and maybe more. Anyway I won’t get mad at myself for getting this one particular question wrong, I know for a fact that this was because I didn’t think things through instead of being careless and not because I didn’t know how to just that it was kind of a tricky one.What got me mad at this question though was how other people work on it. Sure some people can do this tricky one and got it right however one of my friend( if you could call it that ) was spewing strange and wrong way to solve this although he got it correct so this one is more of a personal reason.
What truly got me mad was how instead of solving this using calculus, they opt for easier way which was approximation. I suppose it’s also a way to solve the problem however I feel like it’s putting the cart before the horse. You focus on the answer and the grades instead of the knowledge on solving the problem itself. I tried using calculus and got a wrong answer, my friend who (I think) uses a wrong way but got it correct, but most student just put the number into their calculator and since it was limit x-> infinity they just put a really big number and approximate the value. It didn’t help that the problem was in the form of multiple choice and so they got it correct using something that I feel was kind of cheating.
If I have to say though, I also like the idea of finding out different ways to approach a problem. I even use deception and loopholes to solve tricky situations ( although I said that, it’s mostly in the form of games and such. Sadly I don’t have a lot of life experience ). But this time I really feel mad at the fact that someone got it correct when it was clearly a calculus math test. It was a childish outburst I suppose but I can’t tell myself to suddenly stop being mad and deal with it. It was a sign of my own childish behavior and there was nothing I could say as an argument if someone were to point it out. Oh Well, need to change the way I think I suppose? or not? haha.
Moving on, now it’s Saturday and next week is Recess week for me. Got the whole week free and I’m planning on scheduling what I do everyday because I need to catch up on material and also I feel that scheduling it will make me less prone on procrastinating. I also started running today. Felt like picking up the running habit because I’ve been influenced by the things I’ve read lately probably. It’s all main characters who exercises their body and I’ve gotten the habit of saying habits are habits because you don’t let small things change your rhythm. Hopefully will teach me a little something about discipline. Anyway running feels good when you’ve calmed down after a dash, however I almost barf a couple of time haha. I also realized that the problem with why I was reluctant to started running this morning was taking the first step. It’s easy to stop when you’re body screaming something like “I want to puke”, “Stop this”, “Let’s just go back to the room”, “Why bother doing this”, etc. Even when I rest for a while and want to run again, it’s hard to do so after resting for a period. It’s always better to take the first step and think of finishing it once you started doing it. Even I, can’t handle myself when I think of running, so instead I think of taking a step, that step becomes a larger step, picking up the pace, taking faster smaller stride or changing it to long slow stride or even a jog. Before you know it, the end is right in front of your eye.
I suppose it’s not very inspiring when the one saying this is procrastinating all the time haha. I also realized from writing this that I like to use “I think”,”I like”,”I suppose”, and the fact that I like to belittle myself is shown in the last sentence. Oh Well that’s me I suppose haha.
Anyway, this became a much longer post than I wanted it to be at the start of writing it. Goes to show my point of taking the first step I guess, haha. I realized that most people would just go “lol Didn’t read” but what’s important is me pouring out what’s been on my chest instead of people reading it isn’t it? haha